I don't think I can delete this journal yet so I'll just put my thoughts and stuff here.

It was established since the beginning of my time that I was born a human and thus, I can hate. I also can love. But more importantly I can hate. I was born within a family of seven, my two parents and my five siblings, with me as the second child.

Anyway, I have this one particular younger brother I'm going to mention here. He used to be a 'nice' kid, adorable to a fault, hyperactive and a mischievous prankster. I used to get into a lot of trouble trying to keep him out of unwanted situations. He grew up into a lazy kid who wont do anything seriously, but he's still a good kid. In fact, I used to act worst than him when it comes to respect and proper etiquette.

And well... I love him as an older sister.

But lately, he started mingling with the wrong sort of... friends. He changed from a lazyass kid into an insolent little bastard (the disagreeable meaning) who won't ever come home anymore. He started smoking (despite being a minor in Malaysian law), he won't study at all and he became cocky despite failing school. Mom yelled at him EVERY DAY now, I had to listen to every word because it was so loud. Dad doesn't want to bother worrying because he didn't want to worsen his health, but he still give weekly lecture to my little brother. I myself heard some of the lectures about his future and who he wanted to be (a hobo? a druggie? a successful person?) and... I must say that if it was directed to me, I would be feeling a lot of guilt inside. I mean to a student, the future is more important than now. Until the day I stopped going to a school (and started learning through experience), I would think for the future.

I've done everything I could to help mom and dad to take care of him and be a good sister, but after a while I didn't bother to do it anymore. He never friggin listen!

And now, I started to really hate him.

I know that I shouldn't hate my own flesh and blood but... I can't love a stranger can I? I really don't know who my brother is anymore.

Man, I miss the past.

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I'm hungry
*goes to eat breakfast*